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Begin to Finish
Demise appears
Anguish and tears
So much to do
Where to run
In disbelief
Decry the grief
How is it true
Proceed with you
Out of the Blue
Fate’s arrow flew
Natures coup
So long adieu
Look at love
Say goodbye
Cry and cry
Gonna Die
Demise jeers
Absent Years
There’s no Clue
Just happened to you
Out of the Blue
Fates arrow flew
Natures coup
So long adieu
-Fritz-
Truth is Vanquished
Our kin Decay
Time unravels
Soon our DAY
The setting sun
Dims the Light
Who is Left
To mount the FIGHT
We've failed the Dream
Our Youth had Bought
Stepped aside
For what OTHERS Sought
Our Lofty GOALS
For Money Spent
End to a Means
Is GREED’s Intent
Deadline reached
The Darkness Looms
As we are Stacked
In Endless Rooms
-Fritz-
What do you see looking up in the tree
Your fellow apes
eating all the good grapes
Thier numbers abound
passing their affluent on down
It’s how it’s done you’ve been told
Since you were six years old
The few have much
The many have little
having to pay even to piddle
Yet majority Rules
We are taught in schools
But then who’s Rules
The few’s Rules
There are the clues
This monotheistic devotion
says we all have a say
Yet the Rules as we play
favour some and not others
We are all left to bray
with our heads under the covers
-Fritz-
Doors can be open, closed or locked
On some I’ve knocked
Some I looked inside
Others I’ve entered
Then through some I’ve not ventured.
Behind closed Doors are possibilities
They evoke such fantasies
Some beckoned me through
Others I tap on with hope
Then there are those with keyholes to scope.
Doors can be left open for confusion
With Intent or delusion
Some seem inviting
Others I fear and ignore
Then there are those I long to explore.
What about Doors I ignore
Returning to check out the score
Some may still be there to see
Others have new locks
Then someone else has the key.
The Doors I remember most
Are the thresholds I did not pass
Some held promise
Others such desire with longing
Then for all that doubt, I will never know their calling.
Chorus:
I wish I ‘d opened those doors
Embraced those inside
‘Cause life has no encores
In an empty berth to abide
-Fritz-
Those in the circle step away
Joy flows downhill
Pain rises once more
An emptiness inside
That hollows and grows
What have you not done
Failure you’ve made
No insight to trade
No touch stones seem right
Hand holds dissolve
Empty faces in the circle
Your reach seems so poor
Reality transposed
Joy flows downhill
Pain rises once more
Colours shift to grey
In comes the fog
Twilight engulfs
Where once there was light
Now darkness crawls
No point raising your head
Your fate you have read
Nowhere safe to tread
No hope in dead
So cleverly fed
Sleep to engage
Thoughts to depart
That what’s in store
Pain flows downhill
Joy rises once more
What was all the reluctance for
In a solitary berth to abide
It’s you that you abhor
Yes unsatisfied
It’s not a Lore
Folks to Adore
Those you ignore
Are then no more
I wish I had opened those doors
Embraced those possibilities inside
‘Cause life has no encores
Once you have died
It’s not a Lore
Folks to Adore
Those you ignore
Are then no more
Solitary berth to abide
Your choice implied
No longer mystified
Just not satisfied
But Ratified
-Fritz=
I am always never There.
Ourselves always never Care
Itself always never to Share
Their time always never to Declare
Ours is always never a Nightmare
You should always never Beware
You always never end Threadbare
Herself always never in your Underwear
We always never enjoy an Affair
They are always never Impaired
Theirs always never get Snared
Mine always never a lover’s Glare
They are always never on the Square
Themselves always never Debonair
Us always never Doctrinaire
We always never want Warfare
Mine is always never Legionnaire
Itself always never Everywhere
Ourselves always never Voltaire
They’ll leave you always never Bare
It is always never there.
-Fritz-
“Love is a canvas furnished by nature and embroidered by imagination.” —Voltair
‘AMO’ latin I Love
refulgent = shine brightly (ri-fuhl-juh nt)
That Step
A Step
Your step
The Step
Desire’s the Key
Chorus:
End of the Line
Now it’s Time
Light the Fire
Of your Desire
Life’s Trails
Unturned Stones
No Dawn
Future Gone
Desires Forsaken
Reflections Taken
No Brothers
No Lovers
No one to Blame
Just your Shame
Chorus:
End of the Line
Now it’s Time
Light the Fire
Of your Desire
Through the Whorl
Grasp that Pearl
Let it Shine
It’s your Devine
A Thirst
To be Nursed
Time is Dear
Nothing to Fear
Chorus:
End of the Line
Now it’s Time
Light the Fire
Of your Desire
Insight Grows
You Compose
Light of Desire
With it Aspire
Passion
Thirst
Yearning
Wisdom
Desire
Chorus:
Over the Line
Your Time
Feed the Fire
Of your Desire
-Fritz-
-The furthest you can get apart,
without falling away-
You are
You were
You will be
Timings the key.
Bring it far
Bring it home
Bring it there
Do we care?
Look behind
Look away
Look inside
Who really tried?
Did it actually
Did it blamelessly
Did it Anxiously
Was there Amnesty?
Never Happily
Never Sanity
Never Nastily
It wasn’t Rhapsody?
Pulling Tactfully
Pulling Blamelessly
Pulling of Gravity
We’ve achieved Apogee
-Fritz-
Decades disappeared
Years came and went
Time’s dissolved
What records remain
Are beyond the refrain
Disappointment merges
into what seems forever
But what of life’s lessons
Inevitability can’t teach
If you step into the breach
Time towers over the hours
of days gone by
Looking over your shoulder
why even try
Cover your eyes and cry
The daunting grip of the present
languishing in hopes of the past
Still can’t light the fire
Brush the chaff aside
making choices is now dire
In self imposed penance
I’m hopelessly mired
Tentative steps abound
It is time to choose
Though the end game provides resolve
Best balance risk then have nothing to loose
-Fritz-
the Joy to hold, to feel
the minds eye wants to make them real.
you explore the possibilities
and deconstruct the desires
unpack every if only
turning each hope around
as you explore the world from within
the desires become memories
what might have happened
now seems real
With my arms stretched out
loving embrace to capture
I open my eyes to see
the real world in empty
hope imagined walks away
leaving emptiness and despair
I close my eyes tight again
the hopeful memories do return
what is real and what hurts
drive me inside to shelter my imagination
it seems so safe living in your head
yet once there was someone to embrace
that was so much better
then the memories I had made
those moments pass
you stare into void and strain
just close your eyes
build memories once again.
Retreating from the empty
embracing my mind’s world
no need to open your eyes
and feel the lonely world
the waking moments do reveal
the unrequited dreams aren’t real
it’s a cycle that must be broken
look around, ask, give, and share
Live the dream if you dare
-Fritz-
I Said
She Said
He Said
We Said
They Said
Nothing was Said
I Want
She Wants
He Wants
We Want
They Want
Nothing was Had
I love
She Loves
He Loves
We Love
They Love
But not each Other
I Need
She Needs
He Needs
We Need
They Need
We already Have It
I Desire
She Desires
He Desires
We Desire
They Desire
Very Undesirable
I Deserve
She Deserves
He Deserves
We Deserve
They Deserve
Exactly what they Got
-Fritz-
On the edge of an Abyss
Dark waves of empty
Grey swells from the night
Eyes open to nothing
Life’s meaning dissolves
Social grace decays
The drone of pointless voices
Denying the light
Knowledge unravels
Faith abides sin
The sinister stench
Darkness brings
Change is unthinkable
All light is repressed
The harder you look
Darkness surrounds
Disfigured hands beckon
Unseen in the grey
Each offers nothing
But to own and obey
Singular flicker
You see in the fog
As you reach out
Yours reaches back
Your finger tips touch
The cold dark glass
Your hollow refection
Mocks in despair
You’re alone in the dark
Senses are numb
The strength you must find
From within has to come
-Fritz-
In the abyss
For just one kiss
Darkness, no debates
Another world awaits
Between the sheets
My pillow greets
With wanting my eyes close
My desires to impose
Dissolving into the abyss
Longing for just one kiss
Enter a world unseen
Where I hoped to have been
For a night’s desire to bring
Happiness to which I can cling
Life is too short not to sin
In a world of what could have bin
In the abyss
For just one kiss
-Fritz-
“Who sings this dirge Is on the verge”
Kiss me like you Miss me
Squeeze me like you'll Please me
Smooch me till you Pooch me
Boogie till our Woogies warm
Wanna like your Gonna
Would’ve like it should’ve Bin
Abide like you might’ve Tried
Come on over to the other Side
Together we can turn the Tide
Lustful Stride to be our Guide
In heat we Collide not be Denied
Kiss me like you Miss me
Squeeze me like you'll Please me
Smooch me till you Pooch me
Boogie till our Woogies warm
Wanna like your Gonna
We’ll be so flippin’ Glad
Nothing’s Sad when we’re Unclad
A Huge pleasure will be Had
Ascend zeal’s launch Pad
You may think me Mad
But I’m no Cad in Plaid
Kiss me like you Miss me
Squeeze me like you'll Please me
Smooch me till you Pooch me
Boogie till our Woogies warm
Wanna like your Gonna
That Urge to Merge
On the rise to Surge
Lets Emerge and Splurge
We’re so on the Verge
No opining to Purge
Lust be Courage sow the Urge
Kiss me like you Miss me
Squeeze me like you'll Please me
Boogie till our Woogies warm
Wanna like your Gonna
The Demiurge of Desire
To this Destiny we Converge
And Exhausted;
silently Submerge.
-FRITZ-
Sitting at the end of the dock.
Feet in the cool water.
Under the dark starry night.
Looking for relief from the heat of the day,
still smothering the air.
The moon nudging up from behind the trees
on the far side, clouds playing with the light.
It’s first beams catching the top of the gentle ripples
moving across the lake, dancing with delight.
I follow the gentle waves gliding in the moon light
greeting the shore, sparkling, they revealed a figure
reclined in the moist sand.
The moon reached higher into the night sky,
droplets of water on her skin now sparkled with hope.
Waves joined in anticipation
breached the shore, moving up her legs,
cresting over the inside of her thighs, rolling over her skin.
Followed by more ripples, splashing and sparkling with their touch.
The lake withdrew the cool clear water from her shores,
rolling back down her thighs,
tender delicious droplets caressed her skin.
I watched as the lake again and again,
offered the cool water,
flowing each wave over the sparkling moon lit skin.
She responded to each cool caress with pleasure.
The waves retreated,
pausing just long enough,
returning to please again.
The sensual ebb and flow
bathed in the mysterious blue light caressing her skin,
held me captive.
Finally the moon’s light rose to reveal the sparkle in her eyes,
inviting me to to join her in the lake’s cool embrace.
I dissolved in the moment,
the pleasure,
and the tender moon light.
-FRITZ-
Embraced in the cool of the Night
Immersed beneath Moon’s Light
Entwined in Warmth and Hope
Indwelling their Soul
Heartening for the Cold
Life’s looming fight
The avowed white Orb
Horizon’s accent
Desire’s Bright
Prods to take Love
When availed by it’s sight
An Ephemeral life’s Delight
-Fritz-
You’ve put out the bait
I’m on my knees
Oh take me please
Open the gate
Lets start out slow
Greet our new fate
Passion will grow
Destiny, don’t flee
A gently breeze
A tender squeeze
Happy we'd be
With you in charge
Holding the key
Desire so large
-Refrain-
Are you ready to please
The moment to seize
Spirits so free
Hearts with glee
My lips on your thighs
For a treasure hides
My tender appeal
Desperate to evoke
Embers I stoke
Hearts want to feel
Passions are stated
Desires to uncloak
Spirits elated
With a warm gentle motion
Fingers running down
Your pleasure to crown
It’s a powerful potion
Treasure is certain
With total devotion
Lets lift the curtain
-Refrain-
Are you ready to please
The moment to seize
Spirits so free
Hearts with glee
My lips on your thighs
For a treasure that hides
To your creator you gloat
Our rhythmic moves
Your pleasure proves
Lips there must stroke
World is complete
Divine we float
Hearts on one beat.
Time is unspoken
Together we lay
Gone is the grey
Passion awoken
Grace won its place
Like nymphs at play
Our hearts embrace
The years have gone by
Passion has gone
A distant song
At times I cry
With thoughts of then
Why don't we try
Do you remember when
-Fritz-
Cautiously they meet
Still unsure
Eyes reaching out
Trying to see
Who’s on the inside
Do you know
Anticipation draws in
Timelessly melds
Lips drawn closer
Is it to be
We hunger to believe
Desire to touch
Skin sparkles in persuasion
Lips tenderly meet
Touch alters seeing
Other worlds greet
-Fritz-
An essence, aloft in a breeze
Caresses you,
To be noticed is key.
Your open hands beckoning.
As if conceived, it awakes in your touch.
You cradle it in your mind,
with disbelief and awe.
As your thoughts suffuse,
a beauty nurturing,
a wistful intent.
Too fragile to embrace,
It has entered your mind
to bespeak and blossom in time.
Life around you captivates,
you look away,
now unaware,
you are immersed in the allure,
to it's adore you’ve succumb.
Each breath,
each heart beat,
entwines your being,
your mind’s on fire,
reaching even higher.
The essence you tentatively touched,
cupped in your hands,
is now part of,
your dream,
And your desire.
It is why you exist.
All understanding transcends,
as you reach deeper inside,
the pleasure and longing,
your existence and hope,
awash in the blossom’s new life,
so fragrant,
so enchanting,
Abiding as no other.
This wisp, an essence of a blossom in mind,
a notion once aloft in
a breeze, has rooted inside,
as immutable
as real
as needing
as perfect an idea
as any to existence.
But it is you alone
in your mind,
No other.
Just when you expect and reach out,
it’s gone.
In your out stretched hands nothing remains.
The desires
in your mind
in your heart
for eternity reside.
A new quantum in you is born.
To usher in warmth and vitality,
when aloft in a breeze
it touches once more.
Each time the breeze blows
If life is to have meaning,
in your soul,
open your heart,
accept what comes in,
let it grow.
You are always much more,
then unscathed as before.
-Fritz-
Open to me, Open to you
I see you seeing me, Loosing you
You look in my eyes, I look in yours
I see ability and delight, You see me
Living vicariously, In the eyes of another
Instead of the beauty, Of you to discover
I appreciate another soul, As part of my world
You appear to hide, so tightly curled
Eyes of another, Offer glimpses of you
Reflections to grow, To you to be true
Each day is yours, To explore who you can be
Write a verse each day, It will set you free
You can guide yourself, So pleasingly far
Rejoice in the wondrous soul, That you are
-Fritz-
When I reach out
You reach back
When i ask
You answer
We share ourselves
We share each other
We bring ourselves
We are ourselves
You are part of my world
You share my world
You are my world
It is a wonderful world
Thank you my Sweet
With all my Heart
Love and Hope Always
I Adore You
-Fritz-
When a spirit arrives
And in harmony abides
There is nurture to grow
Setting a new light aglow
Colours appear
From winter’s austere
Emotions awake
For their own sake
Rivers of life flow
From the frozen snow
The possibilities soar
A new once more
And so in friendship
A warm spring awakes
Life’s beauty in sharing
Opens a heart to caring
-Fritz-
I awake with you
Images of the night
Sustain me into the light
Huddled with my morning coffee
Your spirit near
My mind begins to clear
The days expectations start
You are not left behind
circling with my mind
In the numbing haze
Thoughts of you sustain
The endlessly road ahead
As night approaches
Empty and drained
Wondering what I’ve gained
Between the sheets once more
Feeling tired and blue
I reach out to you
Where ever you might be
I see you
Do you see me
-Fritz-
Excitement erupts
A souls arrival I desire
Let times plodding retire
Anticipation corrupts
Tomorrow will be today
If only time was round
I’d turn the wheel
And they’d appear
My treasure to secure
A gravity well I’ll endure
Heart’s racing forward
Converging to now
String theory says it could be done
Time will succumb
Deep thoughts and tachyons
Tomorrows light will appear
A photon I'd be
And with great glee
Tomorrow'd be today
In that wondrous ray
Space Time bring it near
Let a vibrating string
Give me a wave that is clear
So my Brane will sing
Supersymmetry beholds
A string in a circle goes
Gravity is beckoning
For time to fold
Causality be dammed
For today I won’t stand
Let M theory disallow
‘Cause I want it now
Time to uncouple
Enjoy the found time
Desire to dream
Where all tomorrows are now
-Fritz-
I once felt that evil was a silly notion of zealots trying to enslave the great unwashed.
Then I had a life changing experience.
Somehow I had managed to avoid the expression of this evil for most of my adult life.
Then like so many seemly benign endeavours it began with an innocuous request.
A friend had purchased a house and asked if I could undecorate it before they moved in.
I've rejuvenated many houses for myself and helped others over the years, putting up new drywall, taped and mudding, and painting.
The tedious job of stripping painted wood to reveal amazing old wood work, I've taken head on without flinching.
So "of course" I said "sure".
I got my first tour of the project and noted the brightly flowered walls with swirls of purple and pink and red and yellow and greens alternating with shades of blues and oranges harkening back to the heady fashions of the 70's.
Now I did have a funny feeling in my gut, but remained undaunted uttering "No Problem" and "Done in a Week".
As I headed to the hardware store, by way of the 'Rent All Centre', a faint voice in the back of my head was desperately trying to be heard, but I was on a mission and ignored it.
With paint rollers and primers and gallons of gentle new colours and a few scrapers and a wallpaper steamer, I arrived at the house with a kind expectant morning sun and crisp pure white snow covering the landscape. It was going to be a good day.
I filled the steamer with water and plugged it in. Took another sip of my coffee, grabbed my shiny new scraper and started the task of peeling off the colourful reflective surface that is the hallmark of easy strip wallpaper usually revealing the paper backing that yields easily to the penetrating steam and scraper.
I loosened a corner and the other corner and started a gentle even tug that started at the top of the wall and usually ended at the bottom with a large piece of coloured film that can be stuffed into a garbage bag ready for the dump.
Tug snap, tug snap, try again, scrape tug, scrape tug SNAP, TUG SNAP, SNAP TUG SCRAPE GOUGE , SNAP SCRAPE GOUGE, ….. the little voice in the back of my head finally made itself hear …. "plastic and vinyl covered wallpaper is a bad idea, and as plastic ages it gets brittle".
Off in the distance I heard the steamer announce it was ready to rock …. I swung around secure in the knowledge that I had superior technology: "no problem".
With the steamer in hand I confidently placed it on the bright swirls of purple and red and the steam forced its power against the wall and then ran down the wall to form a wet puddle on the hardwood flooring and soaking the baseboard. The purple and reds now glowed with new vibrance with the years of smoke and dirt removed ready to stay put for another 25 years.
I realized that most likely a fellow human being pure of heart was sitting here years ago and looked at the the walls and a force so evil and malicious in intent simply placed the thought …" some pretty colours realized with wallpaper would make this house so nice and your partner so grateful" …. the dark evil force began its reign of evil.
"This is easy strip wallpaper sir, you just peel back the vinyl film and a little water you take down the backing". The evil force listen and smirked, if you do it within the first 4 years.
"And sir, the wall covering will make all the imperfections in the wall disappear no need to plaster and repair those little mishaps." The evil force shone with pride.
I had cleaned up the water spill and unplugged and put away the steamer and was SCRAPING and TUGGING little pieces at a time …. SNAP ,and another little piece of the vinyl covering off … SNAP…TUG ….. SNAP ….. the process left my hands crippled but by day's end it was done.
I used a spritzer and dampened the backing and within an hour it was off, I cleaned up the mess. It was now dark outside and in the dim light from the bare light bulb hanging from the centre of the room I looked about, sighed and headed home ready to sleep, but still the little voice in my head was unsettled.
Another cool bright winter morning and with coffee in hand I arrived at the work site eager to get beyond the anguish of the day before. The sun beamed in the curtain-less windows lighting up the newly stripped room with an intensity that revealed the person that did the finishing work on the dry wall years ago had arms and legs shorter than each other and was severally visually impaired and clearly felt not using paper on the seams under the plaster was going to spare any baby bushes from having to be clubbed to death ensuring not a single tree be cut for the paper tape needed to do the drywall properly.
Back to the hardware store, drywall tape, drywall compound, some fibre glass mesh tape (just in case), new trowels and a corner troll and oh yes some new MDF baseboard to replace the section the water from the steamer saturated and that swelled to a cancerous glob. "They no longer make that baseboard shape ? " …. "well I'll need 10 ft + 15 ft plus 25 ft plus 10 ft" …. " $200.00 sigh … okay fine".
By the end of day 2, 2 coats of drywall compound applied and taped and sanded between coats. There was hope for these walls that had been so badly abused. I did note the pencil lines that the person who applied the wall paper scored on the walls to align the various sheets and headed out for the evening to a well deserved sleep.
I opened reluctantly one eye and then had to pry open the other eye which was cemented together with drywall dust from the previous day's work.
It was dark this morning, somewhat ominous, with a heaviness that usually ushers in a great deluge of snow. I arrived at the house and switched on the lonely light bulb dangling tentatively from the ceiling and with a grunt it came to life providing less than an admirable glow.
A quick final sanding, and the first gallon of primer was pried open, paint rollers and extension handles were engaged and the final assault could begin, but the little voice in my head broke through the confidence and announced that the lines and the wall should be proven to be pencil to avoid the dreaded and unyielding ink bleed through. So with pencil eraser in hand I test the numerous lines, the wallpaper installer had in fact been thoughtful and had used pencil.
The painting began: corners and door frames and window frames were cut and the rolling took most of the morning; I installed the new baseboards and got a fresh coat of the finishing paint on by 3:00 pm and headed home in the gloomy light, snow had covering the world in a thick velvet blanket.
The next day was bright and sunny again begging to be engaged. Off I went to cleanup and feeling smug in the knowledge I had beaten the evil force that had possessed that poor soul so many years earlier and coerce them into putting on not just wall paper, but wallpaper that would bitterly resist its removal.
Again I was greeted with sun light streaming into the freshly painted room revealing satin smooth walls now testaments to my plastering and sanding. I gather up all the tools and rolled up the tarps, loaded up the truck, quick vacuum and stood back to admire my work, and there.
There, near the corner right where the last sheet of the hideous wallpaper was mostly likely hung, there it was. I could hear the resident evil clearly now cackling and smirking with glee and satisfaction. I understood what it had done. The poor hapless wallpaper was finishing and drawing the last pencil line, when the evil with ever so subtle a nudge, broke the pencil lead tip. There in the top pocket was a pen, last used on the crossword puzzle at breakfast and evil prevailed, the pen was unsheathed and a dark sinister ink scare that now glowed through the soft creamy paint was impaled on the unsuspecting wall.
It was then that I knew with certainty evil does exist among men.
I guess most of the humiliation has passed and it is okey to post this little true story now
I should have known adventures awaited me, and to heed the feeling of aging doom, just lie down, avoid Friday the 13th. Yet a cup of tea was called for, I set the kettle under the drinking water tap, but on the counter rather then in the sink, which was full of dishes.
The phone then rang and the washing machine was beeping, so off I went and dealt with the phone call and attended to the unbalanced load of towels which I should have done in two loads, but then living dangerously, what the heck.
So I ambled back up stairs and plunked myself down in front of the TV, noting in a puzzled way, that a cup of tea would be good about now, and wandered what the tinkling sound from the kitchen was, ...shit ... dashed out to the kitchen to an over flowing kettle and a small waterfall off the end of the counter.
Well the counter got cleaned, and stuff was put away, and soggy stuff was tossed out, and eventually a cup of tea was born ... airhead I thought... and plodded on.
Shortly there after I struck off to town, to the Post Office to get the mail, I got into the car, had my hydro parka on, big and bulky, usually with a trip too Ottawa I let the heated seats tied me over, till the engine heat is available, but not today, it was February cold. I reached back to get the keys which somehow I had managed to drop on the floor while trying to get them out of the coat pocket and then, proceeded to tip my second cup of tea, did I mention I made a second cup for the drive, all over and into the counsel in my pride and joy, the baby, 1991 MB 300E ... milk and sugar and tea oozing into everything .... I never made it to the post office ....you idiot… I thought, while cleaning and mopping up the mess knowing the once spring arrived the console would have to be dismantled and cleaned properly … sigh.
The kids came by that night to wish me a Happy Birthday and we hung out, ate, talked and enjoyed the company …. after which I slide safely into bed.
Saturday, we were greeted by a beautiful sunny day. We exchanged Valentines over breakfast, reveling in the heart felt love and caring we shared. My wife's cold had gotten the best of her, so she headed back to bed and I said I would organize dinner and we would see each other then.
There was still the matter of the accumulated dishes, that had never been totally dealt with ( no, we would not get the Good House Keeping seal of approval ), that seemed like a good place to start before heading out for the grocery store.
I never made it to the grocery store, ... I was filling the kitchen sink with dish soap and water when I heard the dryer beep, from the load of towels from the night before, that I had finally put into the dryer. So while the sink filled I thought I'd grab the towels and toss them into a laundry basket bring them up stairs to fold after the dishes were done.
Now clearly I'm distracted easily, because since I was in the basement I thought I would hit the freezer to get the fixings out for dinner and save a trip. Freezers, as it turns out are interesting places and can be engaging for someone like me ... yet I did notice the dripping sound of water in the basement; turns out the kitchen floor is less then water tight and lead me to thinking way this would be ....
... I dashed up stairs, and right out of a 'I Love Lucy' episode, a wall of suds was making its way across the expanse of the kitchen and greeting me in the hallway. I managed to avoid the inevitable pratfall in the suds and got the water turned off ... what to do .... what to do ... dashed back down stairs to get the hamper of dry towels and yup ... began cleaning up the kitchen disaster .... in the end the kitchen floor got a long over due wash, and since I could not finish the dishes, the floor was still wet. A strategically located vacuum cleaner beside the mop had gotten my attention, so the house got vacuumed and straightened as well. The towels got a second washing.
In the middle of all this I had managed to cobble together a fishermen's pie from frozen salmon I had earlier noticed in the freezer, boiled and mashed potatoes, boiled and mashed squash also spotted in the freezer, and mixed vegetables, and slide the concoction into the oven. Frozen dinner rolls were now returning to life as well, and the table was set.
Ding ... Dong...; a couple of good friends were at the door, they were just passing through to wish me a happy birthday and dropped of a delicious rum cake and wine ... things were actually coming together. The chocolate moose I had whipped up would be perfect on the cake. I hadn't made it to town, so the wine was perfect timing.
The stove beeped its sound of approval announcing the dinner was ready.
Oh yes ... my wife .... tap tap tap .... no response .... slipped quietly into the darkened bedroom to announce dinner was served .... she had noticed the vacuum for a brief second, but nothing else, still feeling sick, apologized rolled over, and went back to sleep.
Somehow watching Steve Martin's the 'JERK' while eating my fishermen's pie alone, seemed to bring it all full circle and rather then risk further mayhem ..... I was sound asleep by 22:00 hours and very clearly half way to 108 years old.
Cheers
Fritz
In we come
Round we go
Where we stop
Who’s to know
It’s a tender game
Transmitting DNA
Narrating with aim
Willing us to play
Logic says run
Hormones say stay
Having fun
Must obey
Neutral are none
Just shades of Grey
No room for a pun
At the moon we bay
The chords diminished
Dopamines faded
Seems were finished
Soon to be traded
-Fritz-
Not just tried
Rather imbibed
The Bard liked his weed
To imbibe, or not to imbibe, that is the question:
Whether 'tis Nobler in the mind to suffer
The Slings and Arrows of outrageous Giggles,
Or not smoke Weed against a Sea of troubles,
-Fritz-
Now that the plump avian gratitude fest is behind us, thoughts can turn to the hollowing out of gourds and imagined beasties in the night. Not the least of which was the dropping of the writ several months ago.
Look Willy
What's that behind the tree
What could it be
Lets see
Willy, is it
A little fury friend
Cute little eyes
Can you see
I hear
Rustling leaves
A chainsaws roar
Don't be afraid
Oh my
A dismembered corpse
Spurting blood all around
Is that daddy on the ground
There's mommy
Waving her chain saw
Running away from the law
Wave goodbye
Don't flee
What else is behind the tree
Oh don't cry Willy
Mommy has lots more
What else is behind the tree
An evil ballot box
Will it rip out your throat
Oh yes, but we still have to vote
-Fritz-
Is it safe to drop your guard
Is it safe to bend over
Like rover in the clover
In every park
Behind every tree
A murder be
Is that clean
Don’t eat that
Not even for the cat
Actors tell you
Hadn’t you seen
Medicine is unclean
Guzzle that oil
Living libations
For the bend over nations
Is a thought safe
Thinking is wrong
Just do as your told
Every night on TV
Dismembering is okey
But no nipples in play
Eat Drink do Mary
Or crazy Larry
Just shave don’t be hairy
Is it safe to drop your guard
But only if you can think
Through this horrid stink
Is there a way back from the brink
-Fritz-
"I’m glad about that. More, please, more.
I can suck sadness out of a song the way a weasel sucks eggs.
More, please, more."
Shakespeare -“As you like it” -JAQUES-
Jaques provides a sharp contrast to the other characters in the play, always observing and disputing the hardships of life in the country.
each day a sucker is born
undaunted by scorn
eye of newt
oh so cute
in goes a rose
a happy nose
chocolate in
can’t be a sin
on babies we rub
from a big tub
will it go boom
could be soon
‘councilled’ with favours
and all sorts of flavours
ship every where
without a care
out roll the trucks
in come the bucks
neighbours complain
too bads’ the refrain
a cosmic brew
most use with no clue
bubble and toil
oh a new boil
we are all blessed
snake oils the best
-Refrain-
pink pills for pale people
lets build a new steeple
-Fritz-
“It's practical, not diabolical.”
It's businesslike not amateur
It's down-to-earth not fiendish
It's commonsensical not insane
It's sensible not cruel
It's practicable not impossible
It's unromantic not heinous
It's virtual not vicious
It's handy not vile
It's unidealistic not wicked
It's doable not demoniac
It's sane not evil
It's factual not infernal
It's pragmatic not satanic
It's simple not serpentine
It’s antonym not synonym
“It's practical, not diabolical.”
-Fritz-
“Here's Looking at You”
Latin:Homo Sapien - English:Wise Man
INNER VOICE
CloseThose unspoken words I spoke
The words I uttered out loud
They returned to my ear
So disturbingly clear
The room goes silent except in my head
I hold my breath knowing what my heart said
My brain plays the words over again and again
I raise my eyes expecting distain
The silence is quickly broken with clarity and healing
How the world should unfold is made kindly with feeling
I can breathe again knowing friends understand
My heart gives a sigh, friendship is just grand
-Fritz-
INNER VOICE
Close
Lets revel in their cries, pain, our gain
Exact a pound of flesh, blood in torrents flow
Rip out their hearts, hold them high
An eye for an eye, death wants to die
The law of retaliation, our guiding light
Injury of compensation, shines bright.
Not from our tribe, just blow out their brains
They are breathing our air, our food they ate
Next they’ll want your mothers, brothers in chains
Time to hang out the poison bate, set their fate.
The bridge over troubled waters, ours alone.
They are weak, ill conceived, unclean
The icon we hold as truth, ours brothers
The truth of all truths, that excludes all others
We came, we concurred, we slaughtered
We enslave, bound, supine
We marginalize, we confiscate, we quine
Look in the mirror, history reflects.
As the worm turns, take all we once had
Nothing left, we’re ruptured and sad
Freedom to take all, our fleeting fad
Turn the other cheek, my dead comrade.
-Fritz-
INNER VOICE
CloseTime for the Sublime
But is it a crime
To make it rhyme
All the time, in each line
Time is on your side
A song once cried
Then in a flash its gone
Reminds the song
Time heals all wounds
Unless you bleed to death
No need to get bitter
Keep breathing
Remembered for all Time
But is it a mirror or a Mime
Grasp your heart with a greeting
Or rip it out still beating
Lost time is never again
Not so the blood red stain
Out out damn spot
Wish we’d never fought
Time is not a straight line
Life is on a steep incline
Time and tide wait for no man
What’s your game plan
Time in a bottle
Love Me Two Times
Tulsa Time
As Time Goes By
Every Time I See Your Face
The Time Warp
Time And Time Again
Time Has Come Today
Time of the Season
Summertime
The Most Wonderful Time of The Year
Good Times Bad Times
The Times They Are A Changin'
Time With You
Time Stands Still
Time Love And Tenderness
Long Time Coming
Everytime You Go Away
Time (clock of the heart)
Time to Say Goodbye
No Time Left for You
This Is the Last Time
All This Time
Good Time(s)
Everytime
Time
Does Anybody Really Know What Time It Is ?
Time Changes everything
Except what is within
Where has Time been
Tick Tock Tick Tock Begin
-Fritz-
Merde Blanc
CloseINNER VOICE
CloseLooking deep inside for truth
Reaching desperately for anything
Emotional tips stretched to the limit
Yet there is so much wonder to grasp
A controlling void separates us all
Religion claiming hope
Politicians claiming to provide
Education claiming the answers
Everyone claiming what’s yours
Our human skills can answer their call
Evaluate, research, dissect, open your eyes
Share how you feel and what you question
Listen to the answers and compare them all
The world we live in is far more then any myth can be
-Fritz-
INNER VOICE
CloseThere must be a clue
To my brain's hue
Minds' eye sees caring
Yet reflectively daring
More longing to know
The deeper in side I go
Am I part of the sharing
Or simply starring
Joined to other's yearning
Or self serving
Inside my ideas embark
But to the world are dark
The need to ask
Is a scary task
The desire for detection
Fear of rejection
"To thine own self be true"
I share my view
... but still no clue
-Fritz-
INNER VOICE
Close
The dilemma and struggle between competing interests in who we are and what possesses us into action ensues.
It seems to me that at our core there is a strand of DNA, our genetic code, along with RNA in concert with the chemistry of the world we exist in, that is at the core of who we are and what we want.
Over millennium we have been naturally selected to have wants, desires, and self serving deceptions to enable the relentless and dogged creation process that is natural selection.
We are the progeny of a trial and error process that has had us built to reproduce and by chance, evolving communities, creating the arts, craving power and the lust to destroy each other, whether one on one in relationships, or as communities against communities.
I think on the surface a craving for power and resources is a social meme based action take in response to a gene based need driving the actions.
The enormous frame work humans have establish around the prime directive of reproduction, that is recognizable in every living thing on our planet, is so poorly grasped as a driver for our behaviour because of our self deception. We have added these memes in the form of society to the genes and inculcated a level of deception into our brain for our needs for reproduction and food that I believe it is now working against natural selection and needs to be recognized and our social memes modified. Natural section will plod on.
Our hubris to assume we are in charge of our dominion is very likely not in the best interest of homo sapiens. At best with an understanding of what really drives us as a species and as individuals, can we make some small adjustments to our paths and engage our internal processes for pleasure and desire to satisfy what natural selection asks of us and also to make the process of living a rewarding experience for this deceptive self we have constructed.
I hope more of us will look in the mirror and accept when we, want, need, feel, desire; a relationship, a possession, to control, to take, to nurture, we strive to understand that at its core this majestic illusion of who we are, is ‘a sack of meat’ our DNA uses to reproduce. With that humility that our core function in the world affords; we might reach out to each other with appreciation that each one of us is struggling with the duplicity of who we are, who we want to be, who we need to be, and what society expects of us.
That these are all imagined constructs, that are not only different for each of us, our societies values are different, and the planet is constantly changing, yet every living thing on our world and beyond is driven by the same natural selection process tirelessly choosing what works and dropping what doesn’t, without moral conviction, just because that is how we are who we are.
-Fritz-
INNER VOICE
Close
Hope
Hope encircles you and locks you to the Limit’s Precipice, frozen in Time.
Hope can’t be leveraged for change, it remains stagnant, wallowing, and
encircling you, hiding the Despair that drives Hope.
Faith
When Hope has been cast, the door is open for Faith to sustain it.
Faith lets others control your rationalized Hope, in supreme inaction.
Resignation in abiding the Limit’s Precipice, defined by the Big Other.
Faith collapses the brain and narrows the possibilities to a sad predetermined pool of like minded sheep.
Belief in a Dream
At the Limits Precipice a Dream; looks across, it looks down into the abyss, it looks up to the stars, and prods you to try, to get, to ask, to learn, to create knowledge. A Dream is a force for change that engages you demanding action in all directions at once.
A Dream offers the possibilities to achieve whatever you can Imagine and as your Imagination grows, so do the possibilities.
To Dream, Perchance to Be.
-Fritz-